Happy thanksgiving to all my lovelies in America!! I neglected to hit post on this yesterday so it is one day late…please forgive me xo
I was thrown for a loop by a beloved family member on Sunday evening, and if I were to tell you that I had an awesome upbeat, productive week while trying to process it, I’d be lying. I had a painful, and extremely difficult week trying to understand a) why the conversation was started in the first place and b) the shock of now knowing that she had these thoughts bouncing around inside her head.
To be completely honest with you I wanted to crawl under a rock and have a giant pity party, and although I did shed many confused tears, I refused to buy into it being truth. I was hell bent and determined that she, or any other family members who might share her “idea” of the chain of events of my sexual assaults had nothing at all to do with me, and everything to do with them. I decided instead to rise above. And as difficult as that was some hours, it was the best thing for me.
So today, on the American day of giving thanks, I want to share that I’m beyond thankful for the love of my family that I’ve made. The family that I gave life to with my incredible husband, and to the family that I’ve added through the beautiful souls I call friends. This week they carried me when I felt as though I couldn’t walk, and that my friends is what family is all about.
My wish for all of you on this Thanksgiving Day/Weekend is that each and every one of you has your circle that surrounds you and shelters you from the storm when you’re too weak/vulnerable to do it for yourself. I also pray that when these days come to you, as they most certainly will, that you accept them with grace, and allow yourselves to process, breathe and live through them. Because if we throw a giant fit, and ask the victim questions of “why me” then we’re just large brats who only want the good that life has to offer us, aren’t we?
Blessings and love to you all,